I used to live in this city where my life was going really well; spent 14-15 years of my life there. I was in a school that I wanted, with two of my closest friends, and many others who have become like brothers to me. Freshman year and sophomore year were beautiful, but at the beginning of junior year, I moved to a completely different place 13 hours away from the city, 3 states away, someplace in the suburbs.
The city that I had lived in was very violent, guns, and crime rates were high, but I’ve managed to make lifelong friends. The new place I am living in just made me sick. The population wasn’t even that high, but the people were racist, and closed minded. My first day of school almost made me threw up. I was definitely home sick. No one talked to me, and everyone seemed to ignore me when I do speak to them. The teachers were good, but there wasn’t that bond… It was finally summer of 2008, and I was so glad, but zero friends so far, but who cares I thought maybe next year. During the summer of 08 I heard that one of my closest friend is moving to Switzerland for good by next summer of 09. My plan was to make it back to see him for the last time before the graduation ceremony on June 16th 09.
The problem is that this guy doesn’t even uses the computer. All he does all day is play video games. He’s a good friend, and I’ve known him since 4th grade, and he has watched my back countless times, especially in fights. He has given me many things, but has never ask for any in return. He doesn’t give his number to anyone, so there’s no way the other guys or I can contact him. The only place to reach him is to get an Xbox, and I have a PS3! Strange friend huh? But he’s very charismatic, and many people love him. But he’ll be out of my life completely by next Tuesday… Gone in Switzerland…
So it’s June 13th, 09 today…. My mom is planning on taking me back, and we’ll be in the city again on Sunday night, but her idiotic boyfriend doesn’t want to go that far. Now for her boyfriend, that’s another story, but I won’t be going into that detail.
So we’re changing plans to go to Chicago tonight. I love Chicago, it’s beautiful. Much better than where I grew up. But if I take Chicago, then I just missed my chance to see my boy.
So lets get back on track. Senior year of high school. Said to be the best year of your grade school life, but it wasn’t for me. It was the same as last year, but at least this time I knew what I was doing. Did I tell you about my GPA? When I left the city I had a 3.5. In just two years of living in this new place it went to a 2.3, wth? And oh, great news, all my old friends sent me messages and phone calls telling me they graduating at the top of their classes…. I didn’t attend my senior prom nor my graduation ceremony. It just didn’t feel right. I didn’t like the class I was graduating with. So I waited a few days after to get my diploma. I feel so much better having not to attend another day at that pretentious place. But now, after 2 years of my high school life WASTED! I need some friends… So I reopened my Facebook, and started searching and adding like mad. Yeah, I got all my old friends back, but you know who’s missing…
I checked this girl’s photo album and she is such a sweety for taking all these pictures of my friends, and things that I missed out on. I started to cry when I saw some photos of my 2 best friends, and why I wasn’t there… Why my life must turn out this way? Why did I move in the first place? Why did I waste 2 years of my life? Why don’t I have any friends? And why did they attend prom and I hadn’t? Why are they having all the fun, and I must endure lonliness? Where’s the brotherhood, and unity? I stopped looking at the pictures, and here I am asking this question. What should I do now?
It’s hard being Asian in a white man’s AND a black man’s world.
Thanks for reading and answering. If you have any other advice, or questions, just email me and I’ll be glad to provide some more.